Tiger Miss you

I want my surprises !!!

2010-08-03T12:05:00.002+08:00

Every gal loves surprises

Not something that they ask for

Or
a well-planned birthday

ITS MY 21st BIRTHDAY

can don't tell me
"i don't know what you want,

i am not good in this,

i freak out

and i am darn bad in this kinda things"

I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!

Go aND thiNK ~''

if you don't know
GO AND ASK
if you are bad
GO AND LEARN

( ANGry ANgry AngRY )

I don't know doesn't helps sometimes

Everyone knows ME well

I LOVE SURPRISES

DEspite even if its a SMALLEST surprise
it can easily brighten me up

BEcause its you
"i have greater expectation"

*AHHHHHHHHHH forget it*

a post for two days :) ahahah

2010-08-01T18:06:00.002+08:00

HEYHEY
Good Morning everyBoDy ! !

On my way to Cut my Fringe AT FAR EAST
GATAOMO--Jensen
BEst Stylist :) ahahah
then i'll be off to work at AMK

BUT somehow something happen midway
Hated to work there
LUCKILY my lecturer also Got some fyP
Things for me to do
haHAH
THAN I AM RELIEVE FROM WORK
Then i went to meet SUSIE
AT hEr HOME

Alright than they went to
celebrate TEOJIAHAO
Bday :)
HAHAHAH

ANyway yeah ~
HAEV FUN !

Tdy IS My OFF day ~ But BCOZ of FYP ~ i needa gO bAck SchoOl !!

2010-07-30T19:38:00.005+08:00

GooD MornInG EVRYBoDY ~

I WOke Up At 10am Today ! ! !

SnuGGLEs oN mY bEd till 11am

Finally Woke Up

haha THIS IS my BreakFAst + Lunch
Nasi Lemak

Than OF course Do some housework for my
COOL MUM
--
ThAn BATHE ! ! DO UP MySeLF
GETTinG READY TO GO SCHOOL

KEEP SMILING PEEPS

ALright SOON ~ I REACH My SCHool ~
I met SUSIE TAN 4.30 In schOOL
acc HEr hAd DinNER

yAY finally We proceed to
OUR FYP
(OUR DEADLINE IS NEXT MON)
SO today is the last wkday compiling everything
OOOPS

Good Night everyone !!!
HAve Fun ! ! !

The day ENDS ~

aNd well i'm gg home to wait for my

Phlip Tang

and GG to watch TAIWAN TORNADO

Yay YAy yAY

Sales Management Competition day

2010-07-29T22:36:00.005+08:00

As uSuAL -''

The day starts with a SELF indulging Photo AGain

Bidding EveryOne a Very Good Morning To EveryOne

Than I'm oN My way to Woodlands to meet

SusIe Tan

and we have to reach school at 8.30am

to be free labor

And the days goes on and on and on

Well I find a really nice T .. hahah

After everything ends..

I WAS SO ANGRY

because we are the last day

WE HAVE TO DO ALL THE STOCK TAKINGS

and thats so STUPID ..

I don't even see how sales management is link to logistic

IDIOTS ! !

anywayyyy

We proceeded to W65 for our presentation to LiuYing

....

TADANG ~ finally after everything

I wento CAUSEWAY POINT with SuSIE

and

i BOUGHT the contact lense that

ENlARGES MY pupil

PRETTY RIGHT ???? whahahah

ThANKS SUSIE for coaching me how to WEAR ~

hahahahah

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE ! !

Today's Journey

2010-07-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

Good Morning EveryONE ! ! !

hAHAHah

Went school for FYP as usual

....

AND FINALLY MET BABY

On our way to meet mummy at RIVERVALE HOTEL

for a nice japanese buffet

tgt with Joanna

ANd LOOK ! ! !

This is what CRAZY JOANNA ORDERED

SHO CUTE ! ! ! RIGHT ???

Upon ending this meal ~

Lets take a great picture ...

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNA KUAN !!!!"

ANother Fulfilling Day is Journalled

2010-07-27T10:32:00.005+08:00

The Alarm Went off

I got My Morning call From

Seow RUiFang :) hhahha

and i got change

Do up my face for a moment

BIDDING EVERYONE a very

GOOD MORNING ! ! !

---

And than i met RuiFang at JE mrt station

(sorry for making her wait 10mins) haha

And OFF To School i went

......

Than i went for my HEalthcare Class

This is my TEAM today :) hahaha

today is SHARON .. Not LOH LOh ~ hAIz

Wasted ! ! but alright -'' at least

i kept my promise

In return for my favorite MODULES

to be granted next semester

.......

FInally it was 2nd break

i met FUIRANG for lunch

and this was what i ate

hahahah YAY ! ! !

and it was back to class again ...

......

it was so bored and bored and bored

UNTIL MY FACI SAYS

"ALRIGHT THATS THE END OF THE CLASS"

woahhhhh

i pack and went to look for SUSIE and Angela FOr FYP !! hahaha

And Then had a light dinner of Spag
while SUSIE had her Fish fillet hahah

The time ticks and ticks and ticks

i took the last photo of the day

GOOD BYE ~

thats the end of my school

Now i'm gg to be on my way back home

to chase after my taiwan tornado

YAY

! ! !

Alright what happen today ??

2010-07-26T19:55:00.005+08:00

ALright This is my very First Pic of the day ! ! !
Taking Bus 143 from my house

wahahha
Went for my Logistic Class
and my best classmate is this girl call JOY

yay ! ! we work tgt in EXPO . and she's my great friend Small and Tiny ~ but noisy like mad

hahah we took a stroll thro the library to meet my School Chairman

---

Then after school i met SUSIE

This very cute GIRL

who Cut her BANGZ again :) hahah

had our dinner at w6 and bought some sweets

and finally WE WENT To DO ouR FYP
We all went crazy and mAD

And Than AUnty SEOW RUI FANG came and find me
bcoz we can take same train + same bus home
from WOODLANDS to JE ...
FOllow by her wanting to eat something
So we wento MAC ! ! !

And Thats how my day ended :)

whats love suppose to be ??

2010-05-21T14:29:00.002+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13:5-7

but why sometime

we get impatient, both self-centred

getting angry sometimes

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.
- Mother Theresa

what can i do, when i have reach the bottom of my heart.

the hurt didn't come bcoz u didn't care

but bcoz

i tried to knock down every place in my heart

to find more love for you

and i could find no more

i couldn't believe it

i hit and kick and bang even more

i start to hear my heart weeping

she say

"Master... i'm full of scars.

your knocks and kicks

have re-open all the wounds.

I can't take the pain anymore"

I replied

"my lil heart... the man i love

is asking for more

i'm sorry was all i could say"

i love thee till i take all blame to my soul

jiayou bahx !!

as i see them leave

2010-02-04T13:29:00.002+08:00

right now there's many many feelings in my mind

sometimes silence seems to be so deafening to me
so loud unto my heart
started thumping so loudly

tears started filling my heart and eyes

in the life of my school
I stayed back for a year
Hoping to find classmates that maybe I could had for life

Just as I thought
Everything was on track
Now I was slam with a last day left
And
I see my closest left without a word

The scenes left like gushes of winds
Memories flows like river

At the end of 15wks
I found out I was all alone again

Well ~ friends
I treat you guys as great pals
Have fun !!!

I start losing hopes and
Disappointments sets in
I start losing my confidence in friends

I feel lonely, crushed, and sad

(*____*)

what awaits for us in the future ???

2010-02-02T17:02:00.002+08:00

it is another tuesday that i'm about to spend it all at home

after preparing myself so happily that

its a DAY OFF for me

with my dear dear

and i got a msg in the morning that STUNT me

got a shock and stood still

as i hear my heart talks

i know he has work to do

i also know that he do not have a choice

Soon in march, when he starts his RT

he'll have so much lesser time

and as i start work

i'll also have very less time le

i just hope when u have time which u r free

dun forget to miss me oh

when u have more free time

dun forget to sms me oh

who knows what the future awaits

haiz ...

(*__*)

Sad SAD sAD sAd SaD

day

Lonely and Lonely

hAiz ~ sighx

today is a wonder WONDER day ~

2010-01-29T14:15:00.002+08:00

friend friend

bored and a tiring day

slept like a log..

why did the bummbbie sayed "bumbumsaurus"

hahhaa

i dun want it to happen all over again ~

2010-01-24T01:30:00.003+08:00

i hope u see that i'm trying hard enough

i hope that u'll understand how i feel

sometimes i hope u can put urself in my shoes

though sometimes i refused to wake up from the nightmares

but it never fails to make me think even more

*i jus wanna spend more time with u*

i've been loving you all this while

don't u know it at all

what more do u want me to do

what more do u want me to make u know that i love you

Love Love Lurve

2010-01-21T23:15:00.002+08:00

where there's love there's hatred

where there's noise there's silence

where there's hope there's disappointment

its just a matter of time ;) hahaha

*Just that hmmmmm

i duN believe that true love is fated and stuff

i only believe truth can withstand the test of fire

only thru great adversity you'll see whats true and whats not

我的选择...

2010-01-04T10:31:00.003+08:00

没有人了解

在做出那选择时候的我

有多怕多恐惧

但当我回头看的那一刻

我别无选择

除了勇敢的往前走

如果,

逃避不能停止战争

害怕只能让我失去跟多

那我就走我要走的路吧!!!

已经没什么好怕的

也许我已经没什么在能失去了

我一定会把

今天的悲伤今天的失望

换成明天的力量明天的希望

给你我的全部
你是我今生唯一的赌注
只留下一段岁月
让我无怨无悔
全心的付出
怕你忧伤怕你哭
怕你孤单怕你糊涂
红尘千山万里路我可以朝朝暮暮

给你一条我的路
你是我一生不停的脚步
让我走出一片天空
让你尽情飞舞
放心的追逐
爱是漫长的旅途梦有快乐梦有痛苦
悲欢离合人间路我可以缝缝补补

提着昨日种种千辛万苦
向明天换一些美满和幸福
爱你够不够多对你够不够好
可以要求不要不在乎

不愿让你看见我的伤处
是曾经无怨无悔的风雨无阻
拥有够不够多梦的够不够好
可以追求
不认输

The day my face slam on the floor

2009-12-08T13:05:00.004+08:00

You forced me to grow up when i'm all alone

you taught me how to handle fear alone

in the brim of breaking point, you weren't there

When everyone was asking for you, all i could gave was silence

as i see the bed pushing around, my head felt heavy

and u taught me how keep calm

I never knew that i could actually be so strong until i met you

you made me understand that i didn't needed anyone in any moment

You showed me that deep inside me, only i myself is reliant to myself

And when my face fell onto the ground

all i could depend was myself

It was a nightmare that i wouldn't wanto wake up from

Bcoz i knew

my heart will be shattered into many pieces

my tears will be flowing all over again

I never knew i had such a strong heart

until i see it yesterday

that even though its in pieces

yet it still beats as one

and it get thrown on the floor

all the time

yet i'll pick it up

and give it back to you all over again

awaiting it to be smash

*Will This cycle ever stops*

THough in times of our adversity

there are still things thats worth memorial about

worth holding back those moments of folly

I tried to understand

and gave in to all your needs and loneliness

and than i understand

At the end of the day

it didn't change

i'm still the one giving endlessly

Nevertheless i'm glad

that at least i'm still alive

Yesterday

As i walk down those cold alleys

seeing those faces slowly fading away

sounds of broken heart

and tears of shattered souls

I finally understand

and asked myself

"what if one day i have to go to a faraway place"

When all i am left is

cold soul, transparent figure

and i can't be there anymore

what can tears bring back

what can i do

what should i do

No one answers all these questions

and all i could ever gave myself

1 answer

"memories"

~what a day when storms and clouds feels my skies

and rains filled my vision.

sitting here all alone capturing those sceneries and weathers before me~

Today i finally can understand

No matter where am i, what am i

I am strong enough to be myself

Thanks

*ToTalLy BrOkeNn*

life journey

2009-11-24T09:22:00.000+08:00

有些人的人生，是直达车
有些人却是慢车，
中间总要经过许多站，经历许多人…
有人总是下错站，坐过头，
不是错失了窗外风景，就是错过了身旁的人
没有人知道，能陪自己坐到终点站的人，究竟会是谁….
相爱的人，真的就能一路到达人生的终点站吗？
一个不知道自己会在哪一站下车，也不敢任意在车上睡着的女孩…
却是一个只能坐上由司机专车接送到目的地，
无法决定自己人生方向的人

Common~ take it to our strides

2009-11-23T22:37:00.003+08:00

My Team And FRiends

Dun be angry Just bcoz u feel injustice

I believe Heaven has its eyes on everything

Lets just be able to face up to our own conscience

let God do the rest

Those waggy tongues and Rumors

People who still wants to backstab us

Let them do it

Maybe we are not yet recognize

Lets not yearn for ther recognition

we shall neither fight for fame nor glory

Lets Stand Strong

for Justice, Rights, & Self-Belief

For all i believe is

Where it comes to styles lets flows with the wave

yet

when it comes to principals lets be strong like the stones

Lets forgive these people

for all the lies and nonsense they said upon us

In the darkest night, the stars will shine

and when the night reaches its dusk, its about to break dawn

We will hang on to the last

and then we will see the TRUE leader

*Raise us Up ~ FLy Us your WINGS*

our team don't ask for anything much

but only 1% of recognition that we are still alive

::jiayou::

he said and i replied

2009-11-16T14:06:00.003+08:00

He Said

"I hate you"

"You bluff me"
"Bcoz You Love Him More"

"You Don't Care About ME"

"You Cannot"

~what am i suppose to answer~

*silence*

i gave him a long pause ........

for Love needs no explaination

and of all why in the first place I chose you

its bcoz i'm ready to accept whoever you are about to be

I can't stop you from saying you hate me

bcoz its you-

Yet its just the same old scar getting slashed over and over again

I can't answer you When you say I love him more

Bcoz you keep dwelling in the past

and you make it even harder for me to step into the future

And all that i could ever wanted

was a man who will stand by me, and let me fy

A man that finds his identity in me

and a man who knows no distance can Set us apart

A man who will not define my presence

by holding my hands

Feeling Secure with me thugging him always

if u love me, dun say u hate me anymore

for there's only hate or love

u can't hate me 10% and say u love me

BAby its all or nothing at all

*sobSob

If u Could just rip mY chest apart

u'll see i've nothing left

FOr the heart has too much scar

and is drying up

if ur careful enough

hold my heart near to yours

u'll see that the most beautiful part left

Of my heart had already been given to you

FOr in loVe there's no Doubts

in light there's no darkness

#for the last time i'll answer you#

I DIDN'T LIE TO YOU BEFORE

I DUN LOVE HIM MORE OR ANYMORE

for when everything turns silence

it just means my heart is in grave pain

and nothing is left to say anymore

:do anything u want and don't hurt me:

~KnUtkNut~

the truth is

2009-11-05T14:41:00.003+08:00

- The Truth Is -

You can rip my heart out,
throw it to the ground
yet i'll still take it up
dust it off and hand it back to you.

My Tears doesn't blames anyone,
Those are just words my heart uses to explain my pain.

Baby, if i could give you one thing in life
i'll give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes,
Only than you would realize how special you are to me

when you have finish reading this
post that i've written for you.
I am on my way to taiwan already...

I finally understand that
LOVE is Giving someone The POWER
to break YOUR heart
BUT trusting them Not to

And the truth is
if we wait only for the perfect ending
we might miss out those perfect times
thus
i'm handing my heart back to you all over again.

Thats the place you'll live as long as i'm alive :)

Baby I love You ~
MuACkS!!!

Falling Sick

2009-10-26T14:44:00.003+08:00

Uh-Oh

Seems like its gonna be on fever ....

Head getting bigger and heavier

down with sight flu

and horrendous cough

WOW ! ! anyway 2 more days to

2nd mth ANNIVESARY :) hahahahhaha

woooooooooooHOoooooooo

Will give him a suprise !! Tadang !

Alright :) thats about it ...

let me have a good rest at home

take a good nap and snore my way to dreams

Smile

2009-10-23T12:57:00.003+08:00

what lies beneath the deep oceans

who Is the director of a show

What is there after the horizon

anything hidden behind the stages

motive before every action ??

Than what are there behind a gentle smile

from a little girl who have lost a friend call happiness

As she tries to find this friend back

the rule is to keep smiling

Be it when she is hurt, cry or in agony

and than As She Saw happiness

tagging along is courage

So Then She understand

courage comes with happiness

looking at her journey pursuing back her happiness

been thru alot of obstacles and challenges

Standing up after each fall

with blood spilled, bruises everywhere

She refrain from surrendering

Just to find her happiness back

She smiled and continue her journey

she finally decides to put down all her past

FOrgEtting All thE HatrEds

She's Gonna Leave In Peace

Putting down all gossips she hears

Forgiving all the backstabbers

She can't find anymore reasons

to fight-back with people she once call family

for She wants to bring this love

and memories along her journey

If Quarrel has a reason
let it be love
If reunion has a reason
let it be love and forgiving

If seperation has a reason too

Let it always be in peace joy and memories

Everything happens for a reason

and her reason is

She wants to only bring good memories along

~Love, Joy, Peace, Grace, Gratitude, Forgiveness~

Sorry i can't always be with you

2009-10-22T16:10:00.002+08:00

I know life's short

and time's running out

I know you want to spend every single moment with me

But Dear -'' i can't always be there for u

I'm sorry..... i've got things to get it done

My life is getting back on track

give me a little bit more space to breathe

I can understand how you feel totally

bcoz i can put myself in your shoes

The ROad is Still long

.....

Dear Dear & Me at VIVO :) KnUT KnuT

2009-10-22T14:28:00.002+08:00

this Is My deaR DeAr

PhiLiP TanG Y.J :)

That day we had fun in Giant, and taking pictures like mad

Though it look abit stupid and crazy-''

But Thats the reason i love him and i am embracing him...

Yay ! ! Thanks Dear -''

As times goes pass, and we continue to walk our journey

Let many pictures be taken and memories remembered

Someday when start doubting how much is my love for u

LOOK AT THIS PHOTO

its too much for me to say

that i have to use a photo to express a million words of love :)

hAHHAHA ! ! really had fun with ya

let's not be to bothered by anyone else nonsense or remarks

as long as we know we are right

Their mouth is on their faces

lets just be forgiving and continue to finish this route with happiness

Vivo With BinBin and DEar Dear

2009-10-22T14:17:00.002+08:00

My Best Friend - AH BIN

Hey Thanks Pal

For giving me this chance to go out with you

and having so much fun together

Definitely we will all grow up soon
yet all the time we still treat each other so much alike a sec school kiddo

Nevertheless, Sister-'' i really do hope
We will continue to keep in contact
going to school tgt and sharing the boring journey back home tgt

I love you :)

My Happy Life

2009-10-22T14:01:00.002+08:00

Happy is my answer
Having FUn and PLaying Are my ultimate Motive

AS long as i can stay smiling
i'll do anything and everything

People who don't understand me, lets forget it
those that trust me, will nvr doubt me

My Sister And Brothers will Nvr Questions me

I mean - Life's ShoRT-

Do What You Want
Be With Who you want TO bE

JuSt AlWAYs rEmEMbEr
DOn't REGRET
& have PlanningS For All ThInGS

20/10/09

2009-10-20T09:39:00.002+08:00

8 more days .. we are 2 months old

though there are windy and stormy days

i just hope we can endure to the very end

i know perhaps this have hurt you to the ultimate

and broke you by tearing you apart

Dear dEaR -''

i know nothing can be return like to the past

However I hope

We can Just Continue walking it down

When i Made the decision of being with you

i never once regretted

Athough i know sometime i am selfish

and i make you feel so shyt

I just wanna be real and not masked

I wanto be true and alive before you

Dear i know you have put in your everything

and given your best to me

I can feel it and i know it and i appreciate it

I have given you my promise my lifetime my emotions

and my every single habit

you are no longer a bf or a external usb port

YOU ARE MY SOUL MATE

i can't avoid squirbling and grumbling and tireness that you have

but i want to face it and settle it

This is not going to be a short journey

we have finally reach this phase of 3rd party challenge

Hope a trust and bond can be build strong

that no matter what similar example comes out in the future

we will still stand strong to the end

remaining faithful

*i'm sorry*

~kNut KnUt~

trust

2009-10-19T23:49:00.001+08:00

TRUST
means needs no explaination

Don;t say what you do not mean it

DOn't wait till its too late before its gone and nvr be back

dear i am very sorry

2009-10-19T23:34:00.003+08:00

its just a very difficult time

and

i know you seems to be like my wheelchair

and somehow being treated unfairly

sometimes i even make you feel so shyt

about yourself

Its all because i didn't erase his shadow clean enough

many times i cried bcoz of him

i know i'm in the wrong

but i just want you to know

now ... as i slowly gets dependant on you

i will start relying on you

But i promise

i will use a status of
"guardian angel" to be with you

no matter the ups and downs

i will always be there to make you smile

sharing those moments with you

*i believe we can hold our hands tight

and finish this race together*

Thanks for believing in me

Lets not dwell on the past

Hold me tight, and pull me into the future

Let my life be full of your footprints too ! !

Love yA ! !

大树.. 你听到我心里话吗??

2009-10-19T22:30:00.006+08:00

我了解你现在的处境

虽然你以为我会很狠你.. 或许外表给你的感觉是这样

但其实, 心里我从来没有责怪过你

我知道,也很明白-在我选择你的那一刻

已经准备会有今天

因为二月时

在你的眼睛里,我看见了她的背影

虽然我知道不可能拥有全部的你

我还是依依不舍的流在你身旁

就算我已经发现到

你不会对我一心一意

我都可以忍受

如过我的离开

可以让你得到你所要的东西

那我走

不要害怕我会伤害你

因为我不会

如今,走到了最后一刻

你依然选择不信我

我不怨你
因为一开始,我门之间没有承诺

谢谢让我曾经爱过你

我没后悔过遇见你

你教了我什么是无条件的付出

爱你的时候

我毫无保留的爱这你

就算我能感受到

你的怀抱,已经不能容纳我了

就算躺在你生边

眼泪还是无法停止的往下流

原来

距离在进都会有思念

如果你记得我对你说过的话

你会明白,我的一举一动

你以后要好好保重哦

要开开心心喔

勇敢的追求你真正要的快乐

傻瓜!!!! 我没有怪你啦-''

我门都是爱情的受害者

至少我们试过啦...

我也经历了

也许,我就是不太能够符合你的要求

好啦!!!!!! 笑一个吗!!!

我没事, 女人大哭一场就好拉:)

现在我过的很好啊

我和PHILIP相处的很好

他会好好的照顾我

让我有足够的勇气往前走

我会学这慢慢的

我永远的大树阿

你在我心里生了根,发了芽

如今我又选择了令一条路

我会好好的走下去

或许有时候, 拥有也不能让你停留吧!

我接受这样的结果

如果有遗憾

就让大海带着它

流入四海

化为风

把它吹散

这一刀,我还能够忍受

*___*

因为我忘不了

我还是很在乎很在乎

我很对不起PHILIP

为什么我还是会这样的放不下你

为何要因为你,伤害他

我一只很想对他说

"他已经是过去,我不在乎你他了"

但我的眼泪骗不过我自己

我辜负了PHIPHI

*但我始终还是选择了他

因为我知道

他一定会爱我比我爱他跟多

我感受到了....

Dear Dear ...

2009-10-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

I miss you :)

i know the time we have from now on
will get lesser and lesser

But i hope our love will get stronger and stronger
the flame will get bigger and bigger

And of course we have reach our 3rd challenge
the TIME challenge

just always remember
do not worry about how much time we spend tgt now
Bcoz we have a lifetime ahead

Dont always worry that you spend too little on me
bcoz its nvr about how much you spend on me

its about how much you spend WITH me :)

money can't buy time :)

In love there are responsibilities :0
and even if its stress
lets embrace it :)

for if there;s no rain there's no rainbow
if there's no storm there's no beautiful lightnings

i always believe
somehow we will finish this little race together

Our future
awaits for Anson Tang and Abbie Tang :)

love ya :)

LuRvvE UnFails

2009-10-16T13:35:00.003+08:00

its not about how much i gave, when its my everything

Not ABouTt HoWw GooD I CouulD Be, WhEnn ThhIss Iss All i havvE

When i scoop a handful of water up, its all i could ever handle.

I never was able to slp without my boster, And ToleRate shoRt-temPered Ppl
you mAde me Learn How To
AccEpt that Love comes before sacrifices

PuttInG u BeforE me

GiVIng you LoVe and TakInG SaCriFices
anDd KneW ittS All WorthWhilE To See That smile On YOur Face...

Sometimes i think, how much more years we have together.
if it were to ends at 90,
we will have like another 70 more years to go.

And In the midst of quarrels, i wonder why must i spend time quarrelling
making each other angry.
Why must i say things out in a fit of anger, when at at the end of the day "love" is still the reason of our little fights .

At TimEs i fiNd it abIt "uNeaSy" to MeetIng You EvErydAy
But WHEN I DUN GET TO SEE YOU
i feel Like SomeThIng iS Gone. MisSes and ThOuGhtS SanKS in

Each tIme As a GoodbYe iS Bid,
I NeVeR kNooWs WhEN WiLL Be Thhe laSt TimE

EveryTimE We MEet,
HooW I HopE ThAT ThoOSe TiMEss wiLl NvvR FadeS

We LeavvE WItHh Nothhing but memories.

i KnoW nothing WIll Last Forever
and Nothing Can BE There AlwAys

TherEfoRee EAch Time WhENn i GoeS SilEnt
You KnNOw
ThHAt
My DiCtiOnAry hAve No NegAtive Words FOr YOu
And My LoVE SysTem do NoT AccEpT AngErS anD FuSTrAtIOn
Therefore No WOrds ANd SentEnces WIll bE repLied

If LOVE has quarrels, lets not be couples...
bcoz Only enemies quarrels and hates and find out each other WeakPoints

Before you find anything to quarrel about
think thru if this reason is good enough to sacrifice the next few minutes

I finally understand that quarrel Don't make understanding better
IT WASTE OUR MOMENTS AWAY

If LOVE is the Greatest Reason The Only Answer
to Why we are together

let not any other crazy things to come in between it

''-I love you-''

P.T.Y.J

ThiS iS mE 2 YrS Ago.. And I lOOk ExaCtly LikE ThAt noW Too

2009-10-16T13:03:00.003+08:00

I Feel I M so AmAZING

I'm Exactly the same hairstyle, same face
since 2 years ago

Alright.. i really do miss my long hair

but I LOOK SO YOung like that

ItS TIME TO hop n ROck and POP my own Life
oh YAh ! ! !

Always A Happy Gal

2009-10-14T21:44:00.003+08:00

i just know that everyone has a past and they just want it to be silent

that it will affects no one

if someone accepts me, they have to accept my everything

especially my past.

I know you will get angry bcoz of the way they talk to me

bcoz it seems like they are insulting me

Or rather you feel that it links me back to my past

But i want you to know

A PAST is not something i can change or i can erase

Even i have to learn how to accept this crazy fact

And get myself move on

No matter what happens,

I just do not want myself to be Pull-Back

Because of my past :)

Should anyone be so affected by my past

or feels that they are more inferior than my past....

Than hmmmm................

Yup :)

if anyone who is in my life today,

Just know that

you are my future..

And my future should contain nothing

but happiness, laughters, smiles and enjoyable.

-----------------

I will always abstain myself

from sadness, angry, or any pains or sufferings. .

I'm sorry -'' i have enough pain and sufferings and tears in the past

I wanto lead a happy life

When i turn silent its when i wanto shut myself down,

and do not store any bad memories in my head anymore.....

Make me happy or make me sad...

Should u think of any more reasons,

ASk yourself IS it worth it ???

IS the reason more worth than making me smile ???

你的秘密...

2009-10-05T12:26:00.002+08:00

如果说, 秘密是过去-''
那何必又让它狠狠的在伤我多一次??

我永远记得, 孩子是无辜的.
我对他们有责任, 有承诺
不想这样就放弃

坚持了那么久究竟为了什么??

我给了你一次又一次的机会.....
你的对不起算什么??

我还以为真的会有好转

却在我开始相信你的时候
你拿了一把刀
从我心中又割了过去
为什么?????????

难道说我付出的不够多
还是因为你觉得多你对我造成的伤害不够深

说啊!!!

我累了...
我讨厌你让我失去自由
我狠你让我在也对人门没有信任

你一手把我带大
在一手毁灭我的梦

你够心狠手辣... 游戏到此为止

你的游戏我不想玩了
好痛

你让我永远得不到我要的东西
却得到我的人将活在痛苦里

*错就错在我给你这么多机会
错就错在你给过我的承诺*

我只要你永远记得,
很久很久以前
我存在过, 我有和你肩并肩作战过.

在煎熬的路, 我都这陪你门走过.
你门给的难题, 我没有逃避过.

我的孩子我会保护,
我还是会帮他们梦想成真...

一切在那一秒, 变了....

谢谢:)

你听见了吗??

2009-08-03T00:37:00.002+08:00

我很想你..

我二十岁生日, 你会出现吗?

你会带礼物给我吗??

但不管如何, 在许愿时-''
我小手指会交叉, 代表我在为你祈祷...

虽然我不是很明白我门如今的状况
是我自作多情, 还是我想太多.....

如过说, 一切从不发生
我门还是朋友吗???

随便吧...

听说女人唯一的办法能把男人忘掉
就的等她找到另一个男人..

慢慢的把她那一颗颤抖的心稳定下
把寂寞的星空,添上美丽的星星
让她眼前的风景每天都有这彩虹
让她那伤痕累累的心快快恢复

成为她的避风港, 她的大树, 她的希望....

但那时...我选择了你
说过我不会后悔
承诺过,不管以后的路会多难走- 我都会陪这你

***或许放开会轻松一点
也许放手会舒服一点
可能分开会让彼此有跟多空间

儿我..却真的有一点点累

哈哈....

谢谢你的一切

我相信会有一个角落你一定会想起我
:_)

我一定会好好过

你要记得加油哦!!!

难道我的未来...就是这样???

2009-07-29T01:43:00.002+08:00

really ?? what am i here for ???

am i living a life for others?
or
should i live for myself ???

why the last key is nvr with me ???
its the last step ~

and whats happening-''

is this my life??

虽然苦-让我陪你走下去

2009-07-21T01:30:00.007+08:00

让我陪你走完这一条路

能不能让我陪这你走

既然你说我流不住你

会去的路有一点黑暗

担心让你一个人走

我想是我不够温柔

不能帮你减轻你的负担

你的美丽让你带走

把我的悲伤流给我自己

我想我可以忍住悲伤

怕你难过

转身就走, 那这样我也会了解

不管你在天涯海角

我都会等这你的消息

为了你...就死一次把

泼出去了

who am i trying to be ?

2009-04-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

有时我痛苦的快不想在做我自己

有时我累的不想做我自己

我也是人
我也有感受的有思想有付出

几次你怀疑过我
几次你调查过我说的话
几次你无缘无故骂了我
几次你误解了我的好意
几次你因为要保护别人儿忽略了我
几次你在我后面狠狠的说过我坏话

你懂吗?
在难听的话我多希望不是你说的
我多渴望怀疑我的人不是你
"但我终于还是知道了"
听见后
我底这头含这眼泪
失望了

哭了好多好多天

从此以后有了距离
因为我害怕在一次的被你门伤到那么深

要我回到以前的我
或许我还需要一些时间
因为我需要慢慢的想信你们

我的名字在你们的嘴里是安全的吗??
我的人格在你们的脑海里是对的吗??
我的付出在你门眼中是有受到肯定的吗??
我的存在对你们来说重要吗??
-

我累了
我不想去知道你到底在乎我吗
我疲倦了,我不想活在一个随时都会失去你的空间

如果你在乎我,你爱护我
不要伤害我不要欺骗我
千千万万不要背叛我

问你自己
-你伤害我多深-

你们真的看错人了

算了

爱我的人会爱我
疼我的人会疼我
想我的人会想我

我改变不了你们所以我改变自己

但我发觉到原来不管我在怎么改变
你们或许都不会在意

m i really smiling ?

2009-04-24T01:44:00.003+08:00

sometimes
there's so many words mouth that i want to say
so many hurts that my heart yells in pain
those feelings kept within which i wanted to just explode it off
"yet"
i know if i were to shoot it out and be myself
it'll comes out as a sword and start hurting people
'----'

i've decided that i wanto change myself,
and it's a tough process....
a routine that
i start hurting my own ego, and my own pride
.
even when my whole world seems to be in darkness
all i can do is still to fake a smile
and show it as if its all fine
when the inside is totally broken and shattered
.
even when tears are filling up those eyes,
i swallow it down
refused to allow anyone to see my weaker side
.
i run away to some place where no one sees me
where no one hears me
it flows out with those words it flows out with those pains
flows down those cheeks
across my face telling me to hold my head up
and know i cry bcoz i had sacrifice....
.
sometimes i laugh and smile
is nvr bcoz i'm happy
its just that i know even if i am sad
i still have a mask to help me cover it up
sometimes i cry is not bcoz i am weak
just that i'm trying to be stronger
.
i seldom explain myself in details
bcoz i know
those who believe in me needs none of it
those who doubts me will nvr believe in any of it
so wad for ?
.

i can't accept i lost

2009-04-24T01:25:00.003+08:00

Wads the difference between losing and winning ?

its a only spelling ? alphabets ??

ITS ABOUT LOSING AND WINNING to WHO ...

and emotions was really running high, when i know i had to admit defeat to MYSELF-''
i lost to myself-''

he said i won yesterday, and lost by 2 pts tdy ~
and i tell you
NO ONE CARES ABOUT YESTERDAY,
u lose tdy.. it JUST means U LOSE
by 1 by 2 lose MEANS lose -''

我们的世界

2009-03-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

其实这不是爱

他和她的故事...

2009-02-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

一天夜里，
男孩骑摩托车带着女孩超速行驶
他们彼此深爱着对方
女孩：“慢一点...我怕...”
男孩：“不，这样很有趣....”
女孩：“求求你...这样太吓人了...”
男孩：“好吧，那你说你爱我...”
女孩：“好....我爱你...你现在可以慢下来了吗？”
男孩：“紧紧抱我一下...”
女孩紧紧拥抱了他一下
女孩：“现在你可以慢下来了吧？”
男孩：“你可以脱下我的头盔并自己戴上吗？
它让我感到不舒服，还干扰我驾车。” .
第二天，报纸报道：一辆摩托车因为刹车失灵而撞毁在一幢建筑物上车上有两个人，一个死亡，一个幸存... 驾车的男孩知道刹车失灵，但他没有让女孩知道，因为那样会让女孩感到害怕。相反，
他让女孩最后一次说她爱他，
最后一次拥抱他，并让她戴上自己的头盔，
结果，女孩活着，他自己死了... 就在一会的时间里，
在医院的时候
当男孩只省不多气的瞬间

他对女孩说:
"不要为我流泪,不要为我伤心...
我以伴这风, 随着我门的约定,听这你的呼唤
去了我门的天堂,一个属于我门的地方
展开了一双翅膀,永远都会在你的天空里守护这你..."

女孩的流这泪说
"谢谢你教我怎么坚强,谢谢那些回忆
我门等来生的相遇,我还是要做你的女人..
如过想我就偶尔吹吹风,想我就下下雨
在我还没到达我门的天堂时,不要懒惰哦..."

听这自己熟悉的声音,他走了....
看这自己最疼爱的脸庞, 他忘不了...
牵这自己最温暖的小手, 他放不开...
儿不管到天涯海角
怀念自己最浪漫的故事,他带着

他真的走了.....

*****************************

WHAT IS HAPPENING ??

2009-02-08T01:12:00.003+08:00

EVERYTHING I DO SEEMS TO BE GOING WRONG
I DAMN HATE IT
-''
BUT I WILL ENDURE THIS HARDSHIP
BCOZ I KNOW
TODAY ALL THE SCOLDINGS I GET
ALL THE SHYT I GET
HEAVEN WILL JUDGE
**
Heaven Open your eyes ~ PLEASE ! ! !
who is right who is wrong
who says the right thIngs who says it wrong
who does it right and who does it wrong
...
LOOK into my heart for every single decision i made
**
SHOULD any part of my heart BEARS evil thoughts
any PART of my MIND is infested of CHEATING
plz have your rod on me and PUNISH ME !!!!
IF there is ANYTHING i said that is wrong SLAP ME !
...
BUT SINCE THE START OF THE JOURNEY
LOOK AT ME AGAIN ! ! !
Remember why i started out this journey
PLZ HEAVEN look down and NOTE -''
*If wat i'm doing is right and innocent
plz GIVE justice BACK to me ...
**plz remember those pain i have taken on
Those Good that people have forgotten**

Remember those days when i fall onto the ground
with my face slump onto the dirts
when i feel so weak all over me
where tears soak my whole clothings
feets that turned purple for this journey
those knees that knelt for a night
and
the words i whispered
"Fly Me Your Wing. let me RISE again"
____

hold my hand the way you did
mount me across the deepest oceans
fly me above the roaring thunders
____

Slowly i start forgetting who i am
i start to doubt who am i
..
As My Heart Tears APART
As My Heart RiPS ApArt
NO ONE SEES IT
No ONE sees WHAT the HELL IS going On-''
..

I AM NOT AS STRONG AS YOU THINK I AM
*___*
i am not a puppet ... BUT its okay since you like PUPPET
i'll be your emotionless lil gal ~
FROM TODAY onwards
U WILL SEE A DIFFERENT Jeanette if thats what you want
I GIVE IT TO YOU ! ! !
remember
YOU ARE THE ONE THAT CHANGED ME like THIS !!!!!
..
I DO all it takes that WILL PLEASE You

OF ALL PEOPLE YOU CHOOSE TO DOUBT ME ..
SO BE IT ~
in YOUR EYES i'm ALWAYS in the WRONG ~
no MUCH explaination will SATISFY you -''
:)
...
i really learnt alot ! ! !
thanks for teaching me not to be BUSYBODY anymore
thanks for letting me know THAT whatever i do i'm a K.P.O

and for all the SHOUTINGS and SCOLDINGS
its going into a heart made of flesh not steel

and for all the thIngs you have done
its going into those eyes
..

haiz say until here.. also duNNo what to say ~
i can't change what you tHink
and can't assume what you are assuming
..
so just continue to do whatever you want to me
as long as you feel its right and its good for me
**

maybe .... someday .... we will all understand

*jeanette (drenched out night)

我终于了解

2008-12-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

或许,
我真的需要学这放松放开
好让你飞...
---
忽略依旧的爱
因为那么沉重的音乐
而慢慢的流失
..
儿我的眼泪好象这么抹也不会干净..
..
算了吧...
-

终点

2008-12-14T23:53:00.003+08:00

难道我门之间的语言只有它
我们最熟悉的音乐是沉默
还是原来我终于领悟
最美丽的画面却是最残酷的事实
最动听的甜言蜜语却一刀刀的割进心头
最真实的爱,原来就是最残酷的故事.
...
我的世界每一天,都不停的为你改变
你却没发现你却没有看见
..
知道你会累所以都不会要求什么
了解你的处境所以从没有埋怨过
因为你给过我的承诺所以坚持
.
够了..够了..
我们的爱跟这你的句本,开始出现越来越多人
我到的是你的什么人
我眼矿中逗留的泪,你却都没心疼过
我身影中的疲惫,你却没照顾过
我手掌上的空虚,你却没看过
我心头中的寂寞,你却从没问候过
---
如过爱不能做比较
没说谁爱谁比较多
是心甘情愿无怨无悔
.
那如果爱你太多是我的错
我选择放松你
我会不会跟爱我自己
......
原来有些爱,到了这时刻会这样痛
-'''
我还有多少时间陪你
剩下几个拥抱能够给你
多少年让我好好的看这你的脸
几生能够让我在遇见世界为一的你
...
10年生命一路坎坷不安的我,
却遇见那么可爱的你.
我常常告诉你
是老天给我最美丽的礼物
-我会好好的珍惜
和你分享的每时每刻
.....
因为我相信,你即将是
我人生起中一页
最难忘的风景就是
拥有你霸占我一整颗的眼球...
...
爱你爱你哦...

真的吗?

2008-12-05T13:27:00.002+08:00

不是不死,是选择不要死.
不是不能放弃,是选择不放弃.
不是不想放弃,是选择不放弃.
......
我没有你门想象中的那么坚强...
我也是人,一个有感情的人.
..
不要说我长大,不用在照顾
不要说她有多好多好
不要看这我的时候,说的都是她的话题
不要在跟我讲话时,脑里就只有她的影子
.
这样对我公平吗?
我不知道你对我说过的话
对我许下的诺言
给我看过的未来
带我去过梦想中的路途
难道这些只不过就能够用
"你长大了" 来取代吗?
....
走了那么久,走了那么遥远的路
陪你经过的风雨也不会少到哪里去吧.
.
但你就可以这样的忘记我
你可以这样的说'她'比较重要.
..
或者, 他说的对.
我只不过会牵累你...
我是一个没有用的下线,
其实现在有没有我应该都不会音响到你.
*可能每个人都觉得我就是那颗闪耀的星*
但其实,我只是一颗很耀眼的摆设品.
我不该这么自私,
不属于我的东西-一辈子都不用强迫.
可能她真的比我听话
真的比我容易教
...
你的2828是因为我儿不见的吧...
对不起...
****
怪我无能,怪我吧...
对不起对不起-''
原谅我...
(; _ ;)
___________
在人生中,
这是我第二次,觉得自己很没用...
---------------------------------------

历史重演的感受不好...
难道....慌
*******************

我终于明白

2008-12-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

就有那么一天..
有一只小鸟,她随风飞啊飞.
飞过了千山万海,终于找到一个能让她安定下来的归属.
就在一个偶然的下午,飞过一片玫瑰草原
她深深的被那唯一的一朵白玫瑰吸引住了.
每一个早晨,小鸟都会唱歌给玫瑰听.
每一个日落,都会和玫瑰一起休息.
..
慢慢的玫瑰,深深被感动了. .
但有一天百玫瑰却问小鸟"听说红玫瑰比我美哦"
我看你还是去找他们吧..
不要在我身上浪费青春..
..
从此以后,玫瑰对小鸟冷漠了许多.
小鸟却还是用尽了办法去爱玫瑰....
一天又一天这样过去,小鸟也一天的比一天跟憔悴..
就在一个晚上,它又问了玫瑰
"你要我这么做,你才会接受我的爱"
玫瑰回答了"不可能的.因为我是白色. 一辈子都改不了的事实."
..
小鸟便微笑这说, "不管什么,你只需要知道.对你的爱不变"
..
第二天,太阳一嗮起时.
白玫瑰,一身都是红色的.. 开心的他觉得终于陪的上小鸟了.
但当玫瑰一往下看时,只看见一只快离开世界的小鸟.
用着小鸟最后的气,
她说"亲爱的,我把我拥有的命的放在你这.
把我拥有一切的红血,美丽的扑在你的身上.
你最是我这一生最美的作品,最美的结局...."
..

its tooo late to know how much birdy loves...
-''

or maybe i would say "they do not belongs to each others world" :)

My Road

2008-12-04T16:08:00.004+08:00

Its kinda going to be a year has passed,
different kinds of weatherings and situations
endless problems, that had bring long-lasting knowledges.

there's one story that i had always been wanting to tell
a chapter of life that i've always been writing.
sometimes the pen is so heavy, sometimes its just tough you know
hahahha
sometimes i am forced to even stop writing, and give up this chapter.
tears and cuts all over my hands, pain stricken to my heart
i still decide that i wanto continue writing it.

When the night is cold and when no one elses understands me
when the morning sun shines onto my face and tears dries up
as i stand alone wherever i am
i know i am facing this world myself
i am just DARN responsible for every actions i do today as it's affecting my future.

Every night before i close my eyes, i ask myself
"have you given your best, have you tried your best"
and if my answer is all yes
my next question is
"is it worth it, and will you continue doing it"
so many nights i think deeply in thoughts
even though some nights my lil bear bear will be drench with tears
i'll still look up to the sky and say
"I KNOW ITS WORTH IT SOMEDAY, I WILL KEEP GOING ON"

This road i faces challenges to be chased out of singapore
the times when i am left with $1 per day
moments i knelt for nights to beg for one more chance in this road
days when i have a home which i can't return too
nights when tears stricks and i'm left all alone
months when i give my best i see no results

i ask myself "do i still want to continue"
i can't help but ask myself, why ppl have motorbikes and ferrari in this road
and when i've given all i have sacrifice all i could
but yet i only have a pair of broken sandals...

then one day i look up to heaven i ask GOD
WHY ME IN SANDALS? WHY ME WITH OBSTACLES? WHY ME ALL THIS SHYT?
He smiled and touch my little head
and said
"My little girl, because someday when you reaches the place you wanted to go. you will look back and see your little footprints on this road, your tears that drip along the way. The days when you kneel down with your face flat on the ground and dust all over your face, yet you crunch fist stood up again and walk down again. That you may proudly say that you have walk many paths that people couldn't take it. And of all the people God chose you to take this challenges and obstacles, its only because He know YOU ARE in for GREATER things.. FOr a gal to achieve greater things to attain greater heights she must go through greater challenges greater rejections greater lessons."

i begin to understand, i am left with no more choices but to continue to walk it down :)
yep ! ! !

laugh.. u ask me for criteria ahah

2008-11-29T01:17:00.003+08:00

hmmm... "W" ask me 'tell me how to make you my gf''
erm
let me think think
how should i answer this question...

*criterias.. if i set criteria then alot of ppl suitable than i got MANY bf* ?___? haha jkjk

but since you state than i say lo
1st- treat me good
2nd- treat me better
3rd - treat me best

like that can ??
haha mad la !
alright i try i try
*changes are subjective to personal*

1st - he do not need any hands to hold my heart
2nd - he do not need any calls to know i'm still his
3rd - he do not need my 24hrs presense to know i love him

what else ... think think think -''

His must do list
^he must be able to know what in the world i'm thinking without me saying
^always that shoulder i choose to cry upon
^someone who will not be afraid to laugh and smile with me
^giving me big bear hugs when i feel down
^holding my little hands so i will never be lost
^sending me messages to fill my darkness with love

My Reaction List
^the one who can make me stay all night awake just for his call
^his absence will make me worried for him
^one voice from him over the phone will make me fall over the world

MOST IMPORTANTLY
He must be able to accept me for who i am, and who i will be in the future. Loving me not for anything elses, but for who i am. Understanding my past, Cherishing my present and will finally Embrace our future. In all decision knowing there's no hurt in love but only more love, neither asking of any returns nor any comparisons made. He's love for me must be wholly true, totally solid, tangible, full of assurance. Its a bay i know i can find rest, a footstep i know i can follow, a hand i know i can hold, a lips i know i can trust, eyes i know i can believe, he's than my companion i know i can entrust myself to...
the man that allows me to be myself and nothing elses*

***
many promises are made and than broken
many words are said and than forgotten
many startups are sweet and than bitter
many messages are saved and than deleted
many assurances are given and than taken for granted
many hopes are created and than dashed
many relationships set out and than sinked
**

In love above all criterias
remember there's only mutual respect, understanding, compromises, and experience ...

**
So 'W' i do really hope i did answer your question :)
if i didn't .. ask what you still wanto know than..

我不是不哭

2008-11-27T09:05:00.002+08:00

我也是人,我也有感觉..
我不是不流泪,可是你们知道吗
不知道何时我才能够真正找到
一个能够让我依靠的肩膀,一颗能够容纳我缺点的心.
从很久很久开始,当'他'离开了我
我便慢慢的在一个不能哭的环境中长大
..
十年以来,都会在很受伤的时候选择不流泪
都会在低落中学会坚强
就算眼泪在眼角边,我都会忍.
很多时候,就差一点眼泪就会流
我都会很怕很怕,又看见十年前的阴影
..
你们知道我忍啊忍
也会很累很累的
有多少时候,是独自面对那黑暗中的孤独
当这世界开始忘记我的时候
当你们的记忆力里开始遗忘我的时候
我很怕..
...
所以我不断拼命拼命的去尝试
我真的真的没有放弃
真的很努力很努力的相信
..
虽然不成说出的疲惫
不代表我很坚强
..
有很多东西很多事情
嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯
我还有一个月
我也会怕...很怕面临淘汰
我不要离开boss,传奇,帝国
怎么办??fight lo ! ! hmmmm
..
我不是不哭
很多时候我的眼泪虽然不流
但我的心却痛的麻痹
痛的让我无法忍耐
..
最近这几个月,都是以泪水带入睡眠
有时开心,有时哭了就会跟坚强
..
不管怎么样,
我还是会说
"只要有一天我还有一口气,我打死都不认输"
:)

who really knows the one in me

2008-11-23T01:19:00.002+08:00

有时候我会情不自禁的怀疑自己
到的真的值得吗?

你门每一次都觉得容易我的路容易走...
then come take a walk in my road !
...
你们知道吗,如果在十二月份
我都没有成绩,我妈妈要我放弃...
我不停的问自己
我那么坚持的做了一年
为了什么??
..
我的压力又会有谁明白
我的眼泪又会有谁帮我擦.
..
每天我没有停止过的打电话
很积极的去认识跟多朋友
慢慢的一年过去了
..
你们懂我的心痛吗?
当我已经把眼泪忍的很辛苦时
准备好好的进psc痛哭一场
你却告诉我"你没有资格进去"
我听到时,我真的崩溃了.
因为我连哭的权利都没有-''
.
你们每一次,都对我说
我不够好不够厉害
...
我每天晚上都问上天
我哪一点做的不够好
为什么感动不了你们
..
告诉我,
上帝还要我做些什么
才能够让你看见我真的要成功
上帝你还要我做些什么你才会被感动到
.
我的路,又有谁真的了解过.
三餐吃白粥加过夜菜,你们有过吗?
什么是家什么是幸福
.....
为什么为什么为什么
...

眼泪不听话

2008-10-29T03:48:00.002+08:00

很多时候我的心都很不稳定.
每一次就在我即将要倒下去时
你都会出现
儿你的背影常常让我决得很不自在
..
每当你说出我的问题时
我的眼泪都会毫不犹豫的跑出来
儿我只能把头给底下
好让你看不见我脆弱的样子
..
今天你说了好多好多
莫非是想激发我做点什么
可是我想每人真正了解我心理想的是什么
..
我了解这条路很长很难走
但毕竟着条是我选择的路
为它牺牲那么多,
我都觉得一切是值得的..
....
就着样:)

如果人生中从没遇见你

2008-10-26T00:35:00.002+08:00

或者说,遇见你是人生中的一种幸福
也许可能我的命里奇迹真的不多
很坎坷的道路上
上帝就让一个这么平凡的我
认识了世界上唯一的你
...
但就在莫时莫刻
我要很用心的忘记你
要很全心全意的把你的好给望了.
..
我真的做的到吗?
听说爱在生老病死后已经都没关系
问自己没有你我行不行
....
如果有那么的一天我门
在同样的场合遇见
我就当做是上天的安排
...
但先在我真的要把手放开了
大雨狠狠的下在我的眼睛里
一切都没关系了
答应我不能忘记我
答应我你一定要过的跟好
..
你的好是给我最好的礼物
你的眼神是最好的纪念品
..
我在也不会那么靠近你
我不会在看入你的眼中
对你的微笑会慢慢的消失
因为爱这你的原因太多太多
再见-''
................
遇见你之后爱上你然后狠透你
原来爱是回不去的旅行

我终于明白了

2008-10-24T23:44:00.002+08:00

在此时此刻我真的感受到了痛.
我真的发现到
传销不在是我的收入资源
它以变成了我的使命我的命令
...
当那热泪盈眶的时候
我真的感觉到没有传销的寂寞
...
今天我听了那消息后
我真的马上反胃
仿佛我的身体都承受不了
着难看的事实
在厕所我告诉自己我只有
多两个月的时间
...
在这里我要告诉全世界
在我还没有宣布放弃之前
你门都不可以放弃我哦...
...
就算不为了自己
我都会为了传销
*
谁也拿不走
抢不了
*
我的命我的唯一...
....
加油

这条路

2008-10-20T12:33:00.002+08:00

真不容易,真的用了很多很多的确泪水
走的我精疲力尽,走的我很累.
甚至于有想过,想腿出.
但每次有着概念的时候,眼类都回很不负起
的流出来. 脑力只想着,为什么我做不到.
是我不够好,还是我没有尽力. 还是我付出的不够.
(*__*)
想了想, 我有啊!...
为什么别人才做到我的一半,都可以.
也不许要想我一样板走的确这么辛苦.
..
我的痛苦我的眼泪我的汗水
谁知道看到想到
..
我真的没有你们想的那么坚强
我也有脆弱的时候
我也有想放弃的时候
我是人才不是神
..
着条路我走了快一年了
什么成绩也没有
我也是会很失落
放进那么多的时间的努力
但什么都没看到
-
为了相信我一定会胜过天
为了和命运赌一吧
我就是要倔强的走出自己的过去
..
但上天很喜欢做弄我.
给我很多别人不需要
的困难挫折
送了我大风大浪
.....
很多时候你们都告诉我
不够好不够尽力
真的吗?
真的是这样吗?
这么久以来我真的没有努力吗?
..
但无所为
我告诉自己
我要坚强,
别人可以看不起我
别人可以说我没有尽力而为
全世界都可能说我做不到
但
我自己
不能够放弃,不可以看不起自己,
自己会给自己掌声
自己要对自己大大声的说我一定做到...
.....
反正十年了,
我还不是自己这样一来度过难关
..
有些事情我忘不了
有些路我一选好了
有些泪水我准备牺牲
有些痛苦我会一个人挨
..
我不相信
我没有感动过你门
..
哈哈
算了吧.
..
我会为自己加油
有一天我一定会
闯关夺冠-''
..

maybe

2008-10-19T01:28:00.002+08:00

as i see a room full of hopes, i just wasn't fitting in right...

as i see a meeting about to start, i knew i couldnt get in

a glass away from it, seems a million miles away

DUN GIVE ME ANY BULL SHITS

sometimes i wonder what i am to you guys
i really think hard
am i not doing it enough
or
is this what you call stress
...
I JUST WANTO KnOw 1 question
answer me
"TO YOU HAVE I GIVE MY BEST"
-''

I WANT ALL or NOTHING at all
(*__*)
i gave up everything for this
i gave up i gave up
.....

i hit rock bottom yet i can't show
why must i still wear a mask everyday
and tell the rest they can do it
...
why NO ONE sees thru my heart
why no one bothers about this ger who
is falling apart
why no one sees a shadow behind a mask
---
everyday before i go and meet you guys
i tell myself
the moment i wear the make-up i'm not myself
bcoz I Can'T
everyone THINKS i am STRONG
THINKS that i can do it and i can shoulder it
...
BUT I can't ~
its ripping me apart
its tearing me apart
its breaking me apart
...
each time i'm being reminded of it
i do not understand WHY
I DO MORE I SACRIFICE MORE
nothing happens
...
U SAY u care for me more
U SAY u dote on me more
U SAY U SAY U SAY U SAY
sometimes i doubt myself weather if i can do it
i wonder if i am that .... in your eyes
....
sometimes i wish i cld split myself up to 10 jeanette
to please everyone to make everyone smile
bcoz i believe
no matter how down how unwilling how bad
when i make his people happy i make him happy
...
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
forget it ~
no one knows bye !

... :)

A new Star ARISING

2008-10-07T07:27:00.003+08:00

when the night is dark
and many stars blinks
it becomes a nice scenery to the loss
...
but when the night is dark
and there is only 1 STAR shining
it becomes crucial to the loss
...
我相信我就是神话中的奇迹
黑暗中的闪亮一颗星
。。。
这一生我可能什么都没有
那是因为，以往的人生不够认真
。。
不过我要对这世界大声地喊！
我没有放弃过
因为我知道
有些事要自己做
有些苦要自己尝
有些路要一个人走
有些关要自己闯
。。
believe i can and I WILL make it !
IF this time i still dun make it ...
I WILL ! ! ! ! SIAO LIAO
1 month to put all knowledge into use
1 month to show that its not weather i can or not
but its i want anot
...
those that LOOK DOWN ON ME !
u wait ~ just OPEN your eyes BIG BIG and WATCH
those that infront of me one
always snug at me, say urself more UP then me
U WAIT! kns ~
I CONFIRM WILL LAP U -''
-
if i wanto lap u , i won't lap u by a bit ~
"now i drive honda fit, u drive subaru"
let you win abit abit...
but my next car is "ferrari" i will lap you till you cannot see me!
I WILL LAP U TILL U CANNOT CATCH UP
bcoz i dun see me in anyway i will LOSE to you ~
...
DUN COME BULL SHIT
say you have more experience more knowledge
i dun buy it~
bcoz ITS NOT WHAT YOU HAVE IN THE past
that you are proud of !
its what you are NOW that you are make proud of !
...
DO U KNOW in a soccer match also
got "COLD" win ....
NOW u can SMUG and still think
YOU ARE THE HOT ONE
but dun wait till its too late
when i RUN ACROSS THE FINISHING LINE
ans start running infront of you
...
THIS IS ME
if i want i do it to the ultimate
if not DUN DO
...
Lao Da-''
stir stir stir ...
soon i gg to become pancake alr lo..
LoLX ~ i know i KNOW I KNOW
...
hahhaha
MAY'09
MARKS the shining stars arises !!!
lao da ! u know i know ~ MuAHAhAha
...
wah .... 8 months :
RUN for 8 months ...
-everything goes well-
AUG'09 - tour tour ... yay
...
mUAHAHHA
yay!!!

这条路是我选择走的。。

2008-09-25T13:32:00.006+08:00

原来，路是难走的是孤独的。。有还很坎坷不安

当没有人了解我的时候，我就只能低下头

把眼泪把汗水抹一抹，选择相信自己

就算有时候，天空的星星都藏了起来。只剩下恐怖的雷电。。听到说，这条路末人喜欢走，末人叫我走，多人笑我笨但这条路是我选的，这条路是我自己要走，喜欢走。。

我相信，只要抱着坚定不移的心。。一直慢慢的往前走。对！有些人一出世，就很成功。。也有些人，要用命去打拼-儿，我知道有一天我一定会唱出我自己的名字。。

我选择坚强。。。

*******

孤单的夜里我不孤单，笑着或哭着入睡都一样

最美丽的脸旁是明日的太阳。。

我身上有你给的翅膀，会飞过种种的困难，

或许没人真的了解，藏在那微笑的背后是什么？

可能有时在最低落的时候我都会选择不说话，

只单单的微笑起来，把所有的眼泪往里面吞。。

你们都看见了吗? 应该买看见吧。都无所谓，我能捱的过。。我会走下去。。我一定会-‘’

可能不哭的原因，是因为不知道自己及时会离开世界。但愿如果有一天，时间到了。。

你们不要哭泣，要永永远远的记得我那灿烂的笑容。那永远不流泪的脸旁。。

**
If I can go back in time, i will cherish every moment i had in life.. i will smile even more i will play even more. remember me the way i am :) always oh bubbye ~ hahah

Glad to make so many many friends in this world oh ..

and you guys keep moving on, keep striving on. No one every said it was easy to come into this world, no one every told you living was easy. But dun be too hard on yourself, just jiayou ~ keep walking keep walking. This life has all it takes to let you try out different failures...

hahahayup

Thanks and Regards

明明知道已经爱上你，却转头选择了放弃

Jeanette

a kind of current over me -''

2008-09-16T13:43:00.004+08:00

a kind of fluid splashes all over my life
its eccentric it carries a kind of current
it carries my past
i never know what was happiness and joy
*dun try to be kind*
all these days all i had was just a mask
i guess i had enough of it

who really know who i really is
i allow no one to come near me
nor even try to tap into my past

i always thought as the light grows dim
as the night falls upon me
all will be alright

slowly i began to understand
all this fluids flows since i was very young
its a scar left unhealed left untouch

it flowed out of the eyes of an angel
who tried very hard to wipe it away
and had faith in hersef that someday
as the dews are wipe away
i'll see her happiness
that someday my hardwork will all be paid off

because i understand
through this road
i came alone i go alone
i choose my road, i walk my road
no one bothers me and i bothers no one
they don't like me, then leave me alone
if those who love me, cool i'll love you back.

thats it
A blind man is not one who cannot see physically
but one who cannot feel emotionally
A deaf is not someone who cannot hear
is someone who fails to listen carefully

A BROKEN IS NOT SOMEONE WHO IS SHATTERED
BUT ONE WHO CAN'T FORGET THEIR PAST

a poem from a father

2008-09-16T13:38:00.002+08:00

TO MY CHILD

Just for this morning,
I am going to smile

I will let you choose what you want to wear,
and smile and say how perfect it is.

I am going to step over the laundry and pick you up
and take you tothe park to play.

I will leave the dishes in the sink,
and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.

Just for this afternoon,
I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off,
and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.

I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you oneif he comes by.

I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up,
or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.

I will let you help me bake cookies,
and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.

I will take us to McDonald's
and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.

Just for this evening,
I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born
and how much I love you.

I will let you splash in the tub
and not get angry.

I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch
and count all the stars.

I will snuggle beside you for hours,
and miss my favourite TV shows.

Just for this evening
when I run my finger through your hair as you pray,
I will simply be grateful
that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.

I will think about the mothers and fathers
who are searching for their missing children,
the mothers and fathers
who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms.

The mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms
watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that little body

And when I kiss you goodnight
I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.
It is then, that I will thank God for you,
and ask him for nothing,
except one more day..............

如果从头再来，我还是说我愿意

2008-09-12T12:59:00.001+08:00

很久很久以前，我听说如果我经历
我一定可以有出人头地的一天
但如今，好像不是这样
*对他们的好，却没人知道
帮他们所做过的事，难道真的可以忘记吗？
难道我真的没有做一个上线应该做的东西？
---

昨天和他们谈了几句，
也真的没谈上几句
只真的深深的被她伤透
或许有很多东西他们都不了解
**
但我想说
就算你们真的怪错了我
我也不会怪你们，我也不会放弃你们
因为在我的生命里，我把你们看得比自己重要

虽然现在你们两位都已离开了我
在多的眼泪，在多的解释都不算什么了吧。
--

如果有一天，让我在选择做不做你们的上线
我还是会点点头说我愿意
如果有一天，让我在被你们伤多一次
我还是会选择原谅
因为这条慢长的路是我选择要走的
我走的心肝情愿，
你们不谅解我，都不用经
误会我，讨厌我，怪我也好
你们只需要记得
跟你们一起分享的日子
是我人生中，走过最美好的回忆。。

我会很坚强的往前走
就算很累很辛苦
流过的汗水的眼泪
只为了，想天天看见你们
那张微笑的脸。。

Its not easy to be me ..

2008-09-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

when no one believe that i can do it
i will look inside my heart

I don't have to be afraid of what i am
there is an answer if i reach into my soul
and the sorrow that i know ill melt away

我从来都没有后悔过

虽然流过的泪，擦过的汗水

但可能或许

一辈子的时间那么的慢长

。。。

我也知道你们全部都很忙很忙

做的选择不要后悔

要勇敢的接受的往前走

别说对不起，别让我上了心

才说不是故意，让我无法怪你

因为我讨厌你

我却跟讨厌原谅不了你的我自己

我讨厌这么容易嫉妒没有你在身边的我

我受不了你那

偏心的对待我们

因为我太信任你，开此不信任自己

当你不在我身边

什么事都很像不对

或许我应该真的了解

你的重要行了吧

就这样

你走了，不回来了

smile anyway

2008-09-10T12:14:00.002+08:00

How can one smile such sweet smiles,

When one is so saddened by sorrows for miles,

How can one smile the same smiles,

When life brings me nothing but tears,

I wondered for so long,

What reason you had to smile that long,

To keep smiling though troubles come,

And still remain sweet and silently overcome.

:;Bcoz you nvr know who's falling in love with your smile::

a life of a clown ..

2008-09-10T11:37:00.002+08:00

"The Sad Clown"

As I stumble through this life, help me to create more laughter than tears,
Never let me forget that my total effort is to cheer people,

make them happy,

With the beautiful eyes,

behind the painted stars,

red rimmed terrifying it may seem,

eyes are so blue very, very sad,

Like the world has been unfair to them, Like someone who has lost true love,

Like the tears of a person,Looking at the corpse of a loved one.

Sad Clown,I pity you,I feel sad for you are sad,

And your purpose is so clichéd,

That you have to make people laugh,When your own heart is broken,

With your painted face,And painted smile,

That hides your sad eyes,And your sad smile.

And in the final moment, may I hear HIM whisper:

“When you made My people smile, you made Me smile.”

姐妹你要加油哦！

2008-09-09T23:18:00.005+08:00

姐妹姐妹。。要好好的加油哦！
maybe some people might say i'll get jealous
some people might think otherwise..
but Sister ! i guess
YES I AM JEALOUS, but I LOVE YOU even more.
...
i'll never forget the moment at PSC
and i understand why you will succeed first !
because you understood of giving your best the very first time.. maybe you always think i am the best, BUT you are a bit better ! hahahah
So SISTA ! please stop T-Down Yourself !
...
We made a promise at PSC that no matter who succeed first
we will wait and shout"jiayou" for the next party.. Just like how u got through first and then me.
...
So Sista Don't worry i am not negatively affected ! i am proud to see you represent Mr.Garrick GER'S POwER ! !
Michelle i forever support you okie ~ mmm we work hard together bahz.. Soon ~ i'll start calling you Miss le wor ! ahhahah.. yay ~ jia you

tdy sick can ~ hahah

2008-09-06T19:52:00.001+08:00

Just show some photos ! !
mmmmm
ahhahah

yay ~ me still my pyjamas ~
I know no make-up + no dress-up
Sorry ahhahah ..

我到不了

2008-09-06T02:54:00.014+08:00

i can't see and i can't reach
the happiness in the future

虽然我愿意的为你痴痴的等
但我知道，我可能你是你一辈子
到不了的终点

我真的不想
一直的这样为你守这
我要想蝴蝶一般飞在天上
自由自在的再也不受你控制

在看你多一眼
就要真的放手了
但每一次我转头时
我都会情不止尽的想起你的脸旁

从今以后不要再说
要对我多好，会给我什么承诺
因为现在的我
什么都不要，知不知道
若你懂我这一秒

我想看到，我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我静静的依靠，

你的香气我不了
你的拥抱我深深的感触到
你那温厚的手我放不开
溶化过我心的嘴唇我忘不了
永远的背影我插不掉

在我还没忘记你时
让我好好的思念我们在一起的时光

要好好保重。。

永远的爱给永远的你

Mmmm ~ nth much tdy

2008-09-04T02:42:00.006+08:00

well~ just show some photos.. i mean first day of school mahz ..
see who went home with me ..
hahaha TADANG ~ its RUi FANG FANG ~ muahahah
alright some photos of me tdy ~

~ Thanks for always being there for me ~

虽然我愿意。。。

2008-09-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

can you read my heart...
read through my eyes=' 0_0 '

放开你的手。。放开我的手

说再见-

不会再回头，不会再拉着我的手说爱我。。。

Its the song ur body sings

2008-08-31T14:05:00.002+08:00

I hate everything around me... but i like everything in me-''
when the music plays, and the bass beats.

My body becomes a puppet, and it moves as the songs charges thru my cells.

When all words becomes redundant and its all how your body languages communicates.

No more mis-understandings.. its just pouring your heart out, splitting your soul apart. take off your mask, put your hands up and surrender to that music that plays ......

Tell me that i'm a bad lady, i'm a bad girl. I decides not to say anything to fill in for everything. There's no point in doing so, because i know its not the champion that matters.

Its not to dance to the perfect beat, its to move with it :)

我知道。。我知道。。

2008-08-27T22:53:00.004+08:00

过去的批评，都放开吧！或许真的没她美，没她大方。

没有他的大眼，没有他那样的灿烂笑容。

但现在一切都不重要，现在完完全全都忘掉吧。。　

以往你常常拿我跟他比，到今天还是拿她来和我比较－‘’

如今真的都不重要，

他今天还来公司，也许是向我说我没去吧！哈～

但都无所谓了。因为我在乎的不是他！！

儿是我老爸和大老二。。

虽然明天的他将会和你们一起飞一起去玩

真得很舍不得，还是选择不去送机。怕真的会忍不住流下眼泪

或者这几天真的会很思念你们吧。。

在太阳还没起身时，你们应该在飞机场等待起飞了。。　

很舍不得说出的再见只好对这天上的星星说～好好的保佑他们一路顺风平平安安

在这时候的我，才发觉到一向来。我会那样生气因为我的自卑。中觉得自己没有比她漂亮，中觉得自己的被别人的注意会有扫尾的被她威胁到。

但我真的觉得我不用那么在乎他！因为她是什么东西啊？

可能我没比他美，但我知道内在的美比较重要吧！

*我知道我一定会做的到。。

像我挑战？？好啊！来啊！我怕谁啊！

老虎不发挥，当我是病猫？？

看不起我和我的人，重是以为因为你比较美就一定是冠军！！！觉得我组织比你小。
但！！！！他们都是我辛辛苦苦一手带大的！
辛辛苦苦一手栽培出来的。。

你太小看我了！不是我不能是我要不要-

我受够那些讽刺那些“她比你好，因为她又穿” tmd ! 难道因为有穿就一比我ｕｐ　

什么道理？　

但不用劲！！要穿你穿个够。。　

让我来告诉你，什么是实力派！

一次给你够力够力，让你‘怕一辈子的冷到’。。

我会拼！！一定会拼出一片属于自己的蓝天，　自己的江山～

虽然我只有两个人，但不要忘记～

我有的人你没有，你需要的人全都在我手上！！！

你哭吧你！我会帮你啦～等我有空现。。。　哈哈哈哈

你完了你，我真的要准备打仗了。。必胜

在这一场仗，我只能赢不能输～

因为我知道如果我要，我一定做的到。。

我知道为了我的上线为了自己的自准，我一定要做的比好跟好！！

好了～说到这里。。　

只想最后说：你没要一路顺风。。玩的快乐些

永远的小妹

：）

My swollen Feet ! ! !

2008-08-24T01:00:00.002+08:00

take a look ~ ahhhhhhhh
hahahahhah
The pitifull last baby toe ~ ~ hmmm

errrr who say not pain ??
i dun mind ex-changing my feet with you
till it recovers ...
SEE the whole part Blue-black ! ! ahhhhh

sigh ~ as small as you may be ..
yet you kena the most ! ! !
i may not know how you litlle toey feel
but I FEEL PAINFUL for you!

Beginning to swell ~
but i still go to office ! ! !
mmmmm THIS IS WHAT I CALL SICK
not just little little flu or little little cough ..
madness ! !!

and so atlast ~ do a compare,, hmmm
and you'll understand
how much happier is my right feet
compared to my left feet

and so in conclusion i just wanto say

mmmm

as small as you may be

but you can cause a great DIFFERENCE

to the whole...

like how my toe affected my being

*jiayou*

what can i do

2008-06-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

well.. its just somethings some people keep it within their heart... and only during rainy days does this little droplets runs out.

Its never because i am strong thats why i keep moving forward

Its because i MAKE A CHOICE to move forward thats why i'm made strong

And i believe what has past had past. things that i can't change has become a history. lets just keep the past in a metal chocolate box and minimize it and keep it right under the red blanket in your heart. take it out once in a long time to remind yourself whats been done cannot be undone.

BUT whats undone are still awaiting for you to do it..

Sometimes i really hate to put on a STRONG FRONT when tears are boiling up to my chin and i still have to keep them down there.. aNd remember what my big boss always say "let them out only when ur alone behind the doors" and everyone thinks i'm that strong ?? narhs.. many times i fall apart the moment i shut the doors. heart breaks over and over and over again.

Always been this one thing i know everyone thinks i'm doing so fine with it, everyone thinks i've gotton over it and EVERYONE thinks i'm strong because of what happen..

BUT no-one really knows thats the only thing i've grown so weak. THATS THE ONLY REASON why i must always put on a brave-front a strong-front. AND THATS also the only reason why i've never GIVEN UP.

Always shoving off that question, because i know NO MATTER HOW STRONG am I ... that's the ONLY thing that SHOWS My REAL UNHEALED SCARS my real WEAKNESS my real side of life...

YOU think its fun to be me ?? probably i guess ahahhaha

well ~ i know i'll grow stronger and stronger because there's always been this one person who has never seize to leave me in any situation... only HE knows everything about my life and he knows anything about my life. I know He will always bring me and tgt we will SOAR up and UP above all storms and floods.

Thank God for Him...

Jeanette
"when you do your best, let God do the rest"

A Long Road Ahead

2008-05-30T15:40:00.005+08:00

I really wish I was less of a thinking man and more of a fool not afraid of rejection

Rejections happens almost everywhere, and probably i'll always remember 1 thing my grandpa used to say to me...

"Ger Its okie to fall down, because what matters most is you stand up all over again.." Or rather a quote that always say "fall 7 times, stand up 8 times"

mmmmmm and yup... every rejections or rather failures of course will break our heart mahz. but everyday i pray everyday i hope everyday i wish

I CAN BE TURN INTO A FOOL who is NOT afraid OF rejections NOT afraid of SCOLDINGS

Grow Up GroW Up GroW Up..

That tears Can stOp Flowing despite of THOSE "errr NO u can;t" of those "EH can stop it anot" OF THOSE "Grow up la" Of those "you are not up to standard" or rather "u are hopeless"

Just because i did 1 wrong, doesn't mean we will be wrong forever..

*because after this wrong, we will stand up we will move forward with another armor. AND at the end of the day we will REALLY grow UP FROM A tiny MAN to a GIGANTIC GENERAL.

FROM A tiny plateau to a HUGE MOUNTAINS. we will TAKE the BIG AXES and SLAY those ENEMIES down, SPEAK LOUD that will shake the nations WE WILL MAKE IT TO THE TOP.

~~~

Because the Real War Have Not Start...

We are just preparing ourselves clothing ourselves...

When the GENERALS SWIPE their Flags,

When The Comrades Shout their PRIDES

...

Then A War Begins.. Then A History Begins

A new Story...

...

LETS FALL And RISE

RISE And RISE Higher....

-''

Jeanette

and so... whats tdy things ??

2008-05-24T00:32:00.001+08:00

So Today Of course as per normal
i went to school.. but SOMEONE went with me..
SHE IS RUi FANG ! !tadAng !

Yeah ~ Thats us oN ThE TrAinS. HuMpHs
FUn FUn FuN :)
Then of Course i wento Office
Went home With ~ mmmm

jiNg Hui And mE /// HAhAh WHere Is Danial ?? he LA ! dunno do what ~
Of courSe WhEre Are My oThEr DownLinE
SuCh AS RAchAEl ?? DaViD ?? RanDy ?? HAIYO !
LoLX.. i LiKE tDy FUn FUn FUn

WoW ! ! So what happen in class tdy ?? HaiYo ~

2008-05-22T14:11:00.007+08:00

i Really Really Dun Understand Narhs
HaiYo

OBJECT ORIENTED PROGRAMMING

and

JAVA Script

Teacher Give Up .. I gIve Up ! ! haiyo ~

See during class still can EDIT phots and do my things.. BUT I REALLY dun understand sia ..

I wanto go office OFFICE OFFICE!!!!!!!!!!

Peeps ! if u ever come to RP! dun go BUSINESS APPLICATION ! my opinion ... SO SCAM ! lolx

Sounds so business and in the end IT ! Lolx

Back on Blog ! ! Back Back Back ! ! ! LoLX

2008-05-22T13:19:00.004+08:00

YES !!!

My Journey Begins Begins and ahahah maybe i shld say !

BEGAN Alrdy ! ! ahahha

I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE

我只属于一个国家。。他的名是帝国

我只属于一个家庭。。他的名是传奇

Super Duper BIG Big Boss - Mr.Charles

Duper Big Big Boss - Mr.Benny

Big Big Boss - Miss Gini

Big Boss - Mr.Garrick

Boss - Mr.Simon

Muahahha and me ??? SMALL BOSS ??? LoLX ! ! ahhahahah

well ~ we are all of our own lives.. yet fate brought us into this place to meet to learn to earn..

I will LIVE for the days i remember and the moments unforgettable...

THis is my LIFE ! ! ! YES !!!!!!!!!!!! WOAH ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

nth to say just

2008-01-10T15:09:00.000+08:00

just simply wana say love you

wad a nice poem ..

2008-01-02T19:36:00.000+08:00

噌经拥有的，不要忘记

属于自己的，不要放弃

辛苦得来的，要去珍惜

已经失去的，当作回忆

走过的路途，已成过去

A day ....

2007-12-27T20:03:00.001+08:00

well sometimes... the day we are born into this world.. Our stairs back home started.. sometimes some steps are really huge, where you reall need to trust yourself and just do it. And those times can be painful, but remember you have your friends with you. Each day is but another step closer to heaven, there's is no turning back. You have to take it one at a time.

friends never give up on life, no matter how hard it is.. you just have to carry on.. hmmm we're able to see our birth cert, yet never the end of our life that piece of cert while we punch in. Who knows who will reach there first. But we know we have a common destination-''

Just wanna say. take a day at a time. we are not super people, we take time to learn take time to understand and of course sometime to really make the effort to make our day good. haha

And of course today i took a step, by spending it with jamie and kamal.. haha ~ SO happy So Happy -'' Ch wants me to say this "HE IS VERY VERY VERY VERY Got HEART ! lolX.. he called me even when he's very very TIRED:.. HAhA"

i love all my friends. too many to name.. mainly ~ lets start ..
JIn JIn Raudha WeiBin Jamie WeiJian ChangHong ChewMing QiuYin ShiYing HuiChing Joanne RuiFang and Many MoRe mAny ManY ManY moRe ~ yEAH

ThEy made my steps smaller... MAde my day brighter.. i love them ~ Bless them alot alot !
Whenever i am sad, they are there. when i need a shoulder, they are there. Even if i dun say anything, they know smth is wrong.. ESPECIALLY WEI BIN AND JIN JIN.. superb 6th sense.. they know if i'm doing okine just by my MSN nick.. POWER .. haha

i love i love i love all my FRIENDS ! ! !

hmmm 1st christmas w/o u

2007-12-26T17:38:00.000+08:00

sigh ~ after a long round of 2 years. still so stuck with you. for the past 2 years, i had you as a friend, as someone i like, and you also bothered to sms me merry chrismas. yet this year i'm all alone, w/o you.. haha ~ well maybe to you its a "of course' thing.. well ! its been 2 years, that i've come so far. i promised i really tried giving up, i really realy really tried. i wonder if i can start 2008 w/o you too.. that i may, start everything anew. everything afresh.. But still just wanna tell you that.

Others turn arnd and walk down their road, letting the past be just the past. But to me.. bcoz of you.. i faced back and walk down, always looking at your shadows of the past. Its hard if i had to face my future w/o you. but i will try.. even if one day i do i promise that your place in my heart, have become irre-placeable.. yep ?

My love for you have never once stop, its nvr stagnant. Just that, it is being freeze. my love for you has never once grow old, and never once grow tired.. It just froze somewhere is my heart, where i can't seems to take it out and throw it away.. mmm Your name is always carved in my heart, hung on my keys..

i love you, thats why i can never forget you... even if it means that its hard like what you say.. i can't give up bcoz, my heart has you...

yep !

mmm Well ~ A friend msn me

2007-12-26T17:28:00.000+08:00

I felt the warmth of his, he is none other than Malcolm.
thanks so much For Your MSN ... At least i know someone bothered and someone cared bout me.. and as for the rest !___! narhs it doesn't matter anymore. Bcoz i know at least you are here for me.. and dun need to get so angry just bcoz they didn't care about me. I am a history dust in the air, which once ppl cherish so much. Just wanna thank God for you guys.. hahaha sometimes somethings you just need to learn how to let go anf learn how to grow. if the environment doesn't changes, and it affects you. then if ppl dun change, you change. For a better growth a better future.. I really tried mending some of the hearts. But alone i really can't achieve much, i really am so tired.. Alone i am really small.. Every time i meet them, i see such fake smiles... such tired faces yet no one bothered to say they care. Every time i try to cheer them up by sweets and cards.. JUST TO SEE ONE GENUINE smile.. to get the spirit of giving shared.. Bcoz i believe where there is giving, there is effort there is love. ! But no one understandS. in fact some still compromises.... I am talking about smth IMPORTANT, not just anything ~ if there shld be a disciplinary action taken, DO IT !

anyway its seems so far that i have left, so far behind. hahah ~ well .. love you love you love you always ..

went cameron..

2007-12-26T17:19:00.001+08:00

had a very very fun trip.. had alot of fun ~

played really well ~

wanna thanks you guys alot alot.yep ! nice ciao

What a wonderful day

2007-12-18T17:28:00.000+08:00

So of course i had my dinner with Rui Fang.. my beri good friend. we went to eat botak jones, super filling and super full of course... and than we had a slow walk all the way back from clementi to west coast.

Then we walk pass his house, took a peep inside. looks nice -'' anyway than had a good chat with rf regarding him. Everyone thinks its time to let go..
and whatever he had said and whatever he had done. Goes to show one thing. It shows that "he like me, but he doesn't wants to hurt me"
But anyway its over. i just wanna have a good future ~ yep !

had a nice dinner today ~

2007-12-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

ThankS CIndy for the dinner..

NEXt time must take more photo la ~

ai Yo ~ go out nvr take photo.. hahahah

rainy day make ppl go sleepy ~

hahahahah ~

wow~

2007-12-16T13:16:00.001+08:00

Went out with rui fang

had lots and lots of fun

of course we went out to play

to have fun ~

mmmm

alright we took 100plus photos

to take a look

please click on the link below

http://www.kodakgallery.com/Slideshow.jsp?&mode=fromsite&collid=22396956214.28067956214.1197777874630&conn_speed=2

super stress super stretch

2007-12-14T16:36:00.000+08:00

stress stretch pull trash from all directions

yet not detroyed, not vanished

All i want to hear is

"i believe you can"

i don't want any consultations

not anymore questions

we have our own things to do

and so many times all we need

is just a very simple

"hows things? no worries.. i believe in you"

easy as that

Thats all it takes to pull another pal up

to save a soul from hell

and an encouragement for that person

to move on with their dreams

with their visions

not blames and consequences

and so full of threatens

everyone of us have different thinking

don't use what you think is right

to impose on someone else

and yet thinks

it will be the best for that person

bcoz many times

we are faced with many different situations

we are press at in all directions

thrash by all people

yet not destroyed bcoz of some people

who believes in us

do not be the one who destroys

someones last hope last joy

...

i wanto hear this

"hows things? its okie no worries.
be it storm be it rains
though i can't help your situation

but i'll always be here

trusting believing in you

in whatever you do

whatever decision you make

if you falter, i'll still believe you'll

do it bcoz i know u can"

woah ~ Really had a great time Ytd night

2007-12-10T19:31:00.000+08:00

went to this

"9 ball" pub with kang and friends

Like "peter, john, fred, eric, jeffery, eric, xi wen, rahmon, mr ng"

Guess thats all about it.

We went because our dear friend kang kang
THIS GUY bELOW

Is going into army soon mahz.

so we started off at west coast rc

Then we move on into rahmon's cozy van

so many funny things happen in there,

then we move on to maxwell market

which mon almost couldn't recognize some

of the roads. And we played hide and seek...

FInally when we reach there,

we didn;t know what to eat..

Xi wen and I wasn't really feel like eating that full.

But i guess she needs to eat, bcoz she's really

going to drink.

So we shared a plate of prawn noodles loh.. hah

Fred eat curry mee, Mon eat porridge + a pao,
kang eat ba kut teh, Jeff i forgot.. haha
anyway so we thank went on and talk about

TISSUE paper MLM ! LOLX

i could almost laugh my head off that time.

So funny ! u know.. u can't believe that

there are still these bunch of peeps who are of

different age gaps as me,

yet still so fun to hang out with...

Of course later we proceed to the pub

near cantonment road..

All the things about double yellow line

and their single yellow line.. LolS

No doubts this whole bunch of clicks

are real good pals.

Well i didn't drank much last night

probably 4 sip

and Kang drank the rest for me

real grateful to that.

I didn't want to drink not because

of any reason but

because i hate the after-effect

Yeah ~

All of them so funny !

Kang drank the most

Rahmon, Jeff, Fred always tekan Kang and John.

Especially the 1 dice thing.

SOon ~ we came to the end of the night...

Mon and Ng was abit seh already,

and they are driving.. Thats why they went off first.

Left the 8 of us.

kang and some of them wanted to carry on

2nd round..

So we splitted...

Eric XiWen Jeff And I took a cab

Fred Eric John And Kang took another one.
at first our cab said to go and eat

but by judging jeff's condition

he wasn't too well to be moving about la.

So i suggested that eric and wen go eat,

than he and i go back first.

IN THE END ai yo ! So funny leh ~

Eric and Wen cannot make up their mind

where to eat their PORRIDGE

and so ... in the end they decided on

JE MAC LolX.. ahhaha

So yeah they send me home first loh..

real tired when i reach home at 1.30. LolX

still i really had a great great time and great fun

with all these new friends that i've made.

And to Kang kang !

"must jia you okie.. you have all of us behind you la.

always waiting for you to come out.. Its gonna be real

fast. Just do it well and once and for all. Go through

something all man in sg goes through yeah. If the

rest can survive, i'm sure you can do it too. ermmm

if there is ever a day, you feel like giving up. Remember

the day we had fun like yesterday, dun get confined !

just keep pressing in, keep pressing on. you know each day

you hang on, ur a day closer to freedom. Kang ! bu yao fang qi.

jia you jia you jia you ! We wait for you okie...

ON UR ORD ! must come out celebrate again orh !"

his nonsense

2007-12-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

another one ~
common la okie
ask him wake up his idea ~
he was the one who say
"if you guys have no schel, dunned to contact me"
so i didn't contact hiim
and he sms me "if ur not int, return the uniforms"
CoMMON LA
he think i really LOVE this JOB ?
work till both my ankles got hurt
till both my knees swollen ?
HUH ??? always seeing his
Bia####S ......
freak it ~
common la okie..
so many customers praise me
and some even ask
if there shld be one day i quit,
i can work for them !
see ... I HAVE the "LIAO"
not nonsense like all your others
KA GIA ! nothing but talk talk talj
like maching guns
okie ! u wanna play nonsense,
dun play it infront of me,,
it irks me
and I MEAN IT !
ur not fit to be where you are today
we are your STAFF, not your DOG !
if you wanna posses people SO MUCH
TRY being a ZOO-KEEPER first
bcoz even the monkey hates it !
and sometimes you do look like one
maybe they'll listen to you
....

what a day it is since ytd

2007-12-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

the day ended by all her miss calls ....

i mean if i do not want to go

whats the point of forcing me there

i hate the whole point of forcing

common la k

u can do this all this to others

and not me

alright

first you say there is no cg for this week

its only purely fun in sentosa

i said i couldn't make it alr

i told sh i will not be going

I SEE NO REASON TO TELL YOU
WHY I DO NOT WANT TO GO

so she said ok anyway

and than ytd you called

you told me there is a pm

and ask me to negotiate with my friend

so i can make it for both

COMMON ! i never like any sudden things

see if i had rejected the sentosa in the first place

would i have plan my timing for all your

"so called" borrow time ?

NO ! i will never... if i can reject something

it just means my that day is

totally book ...

.......

than this freaking morning

i woke up

i saw 14 miss call

GARD !

i can believe at least 3 is from you

asking me to call you back

telling me smth shocking

you said "this PM is like a CG"

WTH ! common ~ stop twisting your word arnd

then you said "ur just borrowing some time"

i am sorry but to say

my time is not for you to anyhow

borrow here and there

you want something, you pre-plan it

not just chuck in something from

somewhere...

things are different now

everything have change

Jeanette isn't the past Jeanette anymore

say i am rebellious or even Playing truant

i DUN care anymore

i just hate it when i see history starting

all over again

....

you guys always thinks

you hav the best for us

uh WHAT ?

I do not deny you guys are appointed

BUT! common ~

if you have my interest at heart !

stop making decisions for me

....

i DO not want to call you not

Bcoz i wanna AVOID

but bcoz i dun wanna make things worse

i might appear to be very

silent infront of you

but do you know how much i hate

to sit before you

to listen to you

....

DO YOU UNDERSTAND

its more than surface

tear the top

see whats the under

are all unhealed scars

all unhealed scratches

that i see when i recognize its sources

....

you can say anything and everything you want

because whatever you say

since that min became pointless to me

your voice became silence to my heart

your talking became nothing but passing bys

every single portion of you

broke into pieces at that min

when you decide to cut off my rope

everything crash in that moment

when you decide to push me off the cliff

....

i hope i will never say this

i think this time its real

we are "thru"

no mis-understandings

everything happens for a reason

there's nothing left to say

if you think you are right

so be it

because i know i ain't wrong

....

i still love GOD

and his people

just that you no longer have that impact

or i should say

since the first day

when i was force to leave that group

my soul was force to be with you

and found itself surrounded

by hurts and tonnes of hurts.

....

you left me with no choice

and sometimes

thats the best choice

....

*dun explain

*dun say anything

*everything was just illusion

*it came too late

*and i reach too early

....

I HAVE ENOUGH OF ALL YOUR

"NO-REGULATION"

THINGS

....

that is it ~

she made a wrong choice

took a wrong step

and so did you

Its Too Late

2007-11-27T13:09:00.000+08:00

everything came too late

your words

doesn't mean anything to me

anymore

your presence do not

affect me

wow ...

2007-11-26T09:34:00.000+08:00

if leaving you now is so pain

then i can't imagine if we met earlier

i ain't sure of anything and i can't be that sure of anything

all i know and understand is that

i am who i am

you are who u r

weather we'll be together

than thats really not what we can handle

its not really what we can control

many things have happen

things which can be prevented

things which can be avoided

welll

its been a long time

where will i be

where will i go

will you be there

will i be there

someday maybe we'll meet again

maybe we'll never meet anymore

how is it ever possible

that God

Brought 2 people into communication

and yet we just leave it like this

LoLX...

anyway i am really glad to know you as a friend

as a pal

the future remains unknown

its time to say goodbye..

2007-11-19T09:55:00.001+08:00

看着你离去的背影

我无话可说

从没让你看见我得眼泪

知道你转身

眼泪也不需要在收起了

我会含着眼泪

带着笑容

说声谢谢你曾给我得温柔

说声祝福你和他的路

也再次要说声

再见

Maybe somehow God brought us

as passer-bys only

and you've been long gone

yet i just refused to leave that place

i can't seems to forget your

shadow

each time i refused to allow my tears

to flow before you

i hate to act pitiful bfore you

and only it only flows when

you turn your back

and leave

....

there's nth more left to say

my tears have all dried up

whispers of thanks

unto the days you gave me

whispers of goodbye

wad am i suppose to do

2007-11-16T01:05:00.000+08:00

Now really very tired very tired
Tears have all dry up
Does it means you stop missing the person
The moment your tears dries up
I think its just
Too much my body could take
Of course the bus
Went pass the same route
I saw the bus-stop
The stone table
Everything I that I remember
So clearly
Because he was too real
.
Now my eyes is closing
.
Every single time when I almost
Can forget you
I hear my heart beating so fast
I see your images
Like an old-video
.
If you miss me
Just whisper into the wind ok
They’ll bring it to me
.
I’ve whispered a lot a lot
I hope it has reached you

i just can't

2007-11-15T00:36:00.001+08:00

Today had a really really long day
PoN school to work la
Because 1st day ma
Leg pain ankle pain
Finish work at 11
By the time I reach home
Its 11.45..
Now is 12.29 and I just finish bathing
Hmmmm
Just now on the way back home
As the bus pass by west coast road
When it passes by that
Particular bus-stop
I tear again
I couldn’t stop my tears from flowing
When I suddenly saw your shadow
When I suddenly see
Our past
When I see that road
I thought of you
I really thought of you
.
I just can’t let it all go
And I do not know why is that the case
.
原谅我放不开

my 2 crazy friend

2007-11-13T19:30:00.000+08:00

Hmmm ~ now in school
In front of my laptop
Haha.. yeah
Just now had a bad headache
Slept for about 2 hours
Head smack down
On my table
Dreaming my way off
Lolx.
Yesterday I called that pig Alvin
He was snoring off in his bunk
Lolx. He sounded so tired
So tired
I ask him if he knows who am I
He said “aunty huH”
I go “what aunty”
Then he finally remembered I’m “jeanette”
So I got to know from him that
Brook is back in town
So I rang him out
Not very amaze he’s pubbing I suppose.
Their voice just made me
Understand he’s not my everything.
I love both of those guys
Though sometimes they are a little
Crazy and mad..
But fun fun people.

这一次的离别，我不会回头

2007-11-12T15:00:00.001+08:00

你就这样离开了我

用了那几个字

告诉我，这两年的思念

一化成了一阵一阵的风

儿我也在那一刻

深深看到了你最残酷的背影

浅浅的发现到你残忍的手段

我了解了

离开的时间到了

这次真的要走了

不能回头的我

要很勇敢很勇敢的

往前走

不管面前有多少苦

不管未来的情况

我知道有你的回忆

一直陪我陪我走下去

你说如果爱得那么痛

那就放手吧！

但是你知道吗

虽然很痛虽然很累

但我从没放弃过

你也在那晚

很简单的叫我把你在

msn block 了

那时的我~心碎了很多很多

那时的我能听见内心的呼喊声

一直不停的呼喊你的名字

为你哭了很久很久

整整一天

我也知道

这应该是最后一次了吧！

。

我后悔没有把你的脸看清

我遗憾没把你的心握着

但我会很努力很努力

得想你的陪你为你祈祷你

我会发着呆，然后忘记你

接着紧紧闭上眼。

对着你微笑多一边

在我忘记你之前

泪水模糊了我的视线

你已经看不见

。

你就这样离开了我

她对我说的每一句

我不曾忘记

这两年我没后悔

我不愚蠢，只不过爱上错的人

我没浪费时间，因为我真的爱你

。

再见

如果有一天你要结婚了

2007-11-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

she asked me
“if one day he tells you
that he wants to married le”
what will you do.
i paused and i thought alot
finally i see strips of tears flowing down
i can't deny i still like you
i can't do that
.
if that day really come
dun tell me, please just dun tell me.
till everything is settled,
means the dinner is over
and you guys had ur honeymoon
than tell me.
Thought that time i might still tears
but it has become a reality
no one can change it
.
I'm still thinking what i'm gonna tell you
on the very day if you get married
i guess tears will flow even before i can
start saying anything
yet what can I do about something
which in the first place does not belongs to me
.
she says tell him
“I know we can no longer be couples,
I hope I can be your soul-mates
Someone whom u can pour your sorrows
Into and someone you can rely on”
Yet all these times
I can’t bring myself to say such things
Because I know I can’t let go
.
我放弃不了你
我跟放弃不了我自己
但是在这一刻
我知道我真的生病了
对不起我不能够好好的看着我的身体
但是因为我爱你
很简单的我爱你
就能让我简简单单的过这一段日子
我一定会忘记你

irreplaceable

2007-11-04T16:18:00.000+08:00

dunno la dunno la

stop all these nonsense

all these stupid

you you you you you

ARGGGGGGGGGGG

因为爱你

2007-11-03T19:58:00.000+08:00

so many people ask me why don't i open up

to better guys around me

or rather look at guys around me

who is so much better than you

I took their heed

i look around me and i really saw

so many others who is so much better than you

I smiled and i walk away

i see guys with big girls

with big houses

and i bowed down

walked away w/o even turning back

i answered them

he do not need all these to hold my heart.

They have cars to drive me around

they have house to impress me

they have hands to hold me

they have everything

and yet they are not able to hold

my heart the way you did

because i like you

and so many people think i'm mad

but

i understand the day you left

you left me with no choice

Tiger Miss you

I want my surprises !!!

a post for two days :) ahahah

Tdy IS My OFF day ~ But BCOZ of FYP ~ i needa gO bAck SchoOl !!

Sales Management Competition day

Today's Journey

ANother Fulfilling Day is Journalled

Alright what happen today ??

whats love suppose to be ??

as i see them leave

what awaits for us in the future ???

today is a wonder WONDER day ~

i dun want it to happen all over again ~

Love Love Lurve

我的选择...

The day my face slam on the floor

life journey

Common~ take it to our strides

he said and i replied

the truth is

Falling Sick

Smile

Sorry i can't always be with you

Dear Dear & Me at VIVO :) KnUT KnuT

Vivo With BinBin and DEar Dear

My Happy Life

20/10/09

trust

dear i am very sorry

大树.. 你听到我心里话吗??

Dear Dear ...

LuRvvE UnFails

ThiS iS mE 2 YrS Ago.. And I lOOk ExaCtly LikE ThAt noW Too

Always A Happy Gal

你的秘密...

你听见了吗??

难道我的未来...就是这样???

虽然苦-让我陪你走下去

who am i trying to be ?

m i really smiling ?

i can't accept i lost

我们的世界

他和她的故事...

WHAT IS HAPPENING ??

我终于了解

终点

真的吗?

我终于明白

My Road

laugh.. u ask me for criteria ahah

我不是不哭

who really knows the one in me

眼泪不听话

如果人生中从没遇见你

我终于明白了

这条路

maybe

A new Star ARISING

这条路是我选择走的。。

a kind of current over me -''

a poem from a father

如果从头再来，我还是说我愿意

Its not easy to be me ..

smile anyway

a life of a clown ..

姐妹你要加油哦！

tdy sick can ~ hahah

我到不了

Mmmm ~ nth much tdy

虽然我愿意。。。

Its the song ur body sings

我知道。。 我知道。。

My swollen Feet ! ! !

what can i do

A Long Road Ahead

and so... whats tdy things ??

WoW ! ! So what happen in class tdy ?? HaiYo ~

Back on Blog ! ! Back Back Back ! ! ! LoLX

nth to say just

wad a nice poem ..

我知道。。我知道。。